This week has been a bit of a challenge around bedtime. Ben typically is in bed between 8:30 and 9:00 at night, and is quiet and goes to sleep pretty fast. This week, not so much. So, last night Ben asked me to lie down next to him. In his toddler bed. That's quite a challenge, even for a small one like myself! I did it anyway. Ben had his back toward me at first, and he was arranging his teddy bear and whispering. At first I couldn't tell what it was he was saying, until I started listening really hard-- He was giving his teddy bear kisses, and telling him to "Seep good, okay? Okay." After he put his teddy bear to bed, he rolled over, gave me kisses on my head, told me he loved me while he rested his hand on my cheek, and said the same thing, "Seep good, okay Mommy?" I fell in love.
Claire, too-- this week has been hard to get her down. She hasn't been her normal self. She's been really restless, and wiggley. Then, last night as I was rocking her to sleep, she just went back to normal. She totally relaxed herself in my arms, and she looked up at me for such a long time. Claire coos a lot when she's getting ready to go to sleep, and she did that for so long. I love it because it feels like she is having an actual conversation with me. I fell in love again.
Sometimes being a mommy is really hard, and other times everything about it that's hard just melts away.
By the way, today is Josh's birthday!! Every day I'm glad that I have him with me, as my companion. He's wonderful.
That is so cute. I can't wait to have babies . . . ;)
ReplyDeleteIsn't being a mom great! I love those "sweet and tender mom moments." It makes this life worthwhile. =)
ReplyDeleteI dido Kristin. A lot of the time I am afraid to have children, I think because I see moms all around me struggeling w/ kicking and screaming children:) But then I hear about moments like these and I remember again what this life is all about. Thanks for sharing Em.
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